Can Anxiety Disorders Get Worse With Age/time?
Posted 24 December 2008 - 10:20 AM
I went back on my meds (Remeron and Klonopin) a few nights back after being off them for nearly seven months (I had an overzealous doc who felt I could survive on CBT alone). The seven months I was off were pure Hell, though there were periods where I felt completely normal. I had him tell me that I was going through AD withdrawal and Benzo withdrawal and that it could last a while, which I honestly believe is bullshit. People here have said that, too. However, prior to going back on the drugs I went through a period where sleep was a pain in the ass. I was getting 1-2 hours a night for roughly eight weeks. I would wake up in sheer panic and not be able to sleep.
One night, this changed. I woke up and felt the panic coming on, but suddenly it was gone - along with all my emotions. I felt like I wasn't me anymore. I was feeling angry, having OCD thoughts and feeling pretty whacked out. Like I was going crazy. I've never had this happen before and am trying to get the meds to work (they are kind of working, but not really. I need to give them more time or move on), but every day I feel like this. Like I am not me or that a lot of what I am going through is unfamiliar. I don't feel a damn thing, though by night time this tends to resolve a bit. Has my anxiety become something worse or have I simply gone unmedicated for too long?
Also, any good suggestions for meds? My doc had me try Cymbalta, but it gives me hives something fierce after one dose... not a good choice. He is recommending Pristiq (sp?), but I tend to do well with Tricyclics. My med track record is:
1) Pamelor - On it for seven years then it stopped working
2) Doxepin - Similar to the pamelor, but got off due to super high BP
3) Serzone - Great, but short lived due to high liver enzymes and eventual FDA issues
4) Remeron - Great when I started taking it as Sol tabs, but gave me RLS when I switched to pills (the made me switch)
5) Klonopin - Started taking it for the RLS from Remeron.
I have tried some SSRI's, specifically Lexapro, but I never gave them a fair shake. LExapro made me puke every morning for two weeks and didn't do much for my mood.
Thank you so much for your help. I am really scared. I want to be me again.
Posted 19 August 2009 - 08:17 PM
I was on 4mg Klonopin for 2 years and I eventually decided to get off them because I was tolerant and dependent. When I was getting off Klonopin the withdrawal was pure Hell, just as you described. Interestingly, I would have some moments where I would feel better. I would also have feeling of "not being in my body" and feeling of "unreality". It sounds sort of like what your describing.
I believe what your experiencing are the last remnants of withdrawal. Even after a long slow taper I still have the occasional muscle spasm from the Klonopin I was taking for 2 years. This is even with taking low-dose Xanax PRN.
Posted 19 August 2009 - 09:09 PM
I'd give a new regimen (or return to the old) a little while before trying to reevalute where you are.
Diagnosed Bipolar Type I, most recently Mixed.
Current Meds: Seroquel, Risperdal, Neurontin, Provigil.
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