I don't know if i am bipolar or not. Actually i think i am quite emotional guy but the doctors are here (Turkey) don't know the job well. They just asked me "sometimes you are so happy and sometimes so sad?", applied some tests (some questions, didn't do any blood tests or others) and they said you are bipolar.
They gave me 300mg Lithum two times a day. After three weeks i felt very mentally dull and exhausted. After three weeks actually i felt as if i had lost my all emotions. I love my emotions so i quit using lithium. (I can't see a doc because of lots of appointments but will see different docs again)
I am a mathematician and working as a programmer. If i am metally dull i can't do my job so there is no point of living for me. I couldn't write one line of code in 3 weeks. I love my job. When i write code and listen music i feel happy.
Also they said me i am "obsessive compulsive". I am accepting this but i think i am taking care of this by myself.
Here are my findings in myself:
So emotional (as i said i love my emotions but i don't wanna feel so intensive)
Sometimes so angry very very angry
I can't wake up early, i hate this, it makes me depressed
Strong sexual desire (i hate this also. its corrupting my motivation and make me exhausted)
Sometimes i just wanna leave everything and leave alone in the North Pole or somewhere that have strong jungles and ocean.
I am not saying tell me if i am bipolar or not but a normal person can have these things too?
My questions are:
I will see a doc. about lithium but if it will be like that (make me mentally dull) i won't use it. If i am bipolar and don't use lithium this will be going worse in older ages? (I am 26 now)
Should i take medicines for obsessive compulsive?
How can i take care of strong sexual desire? Is there a medicine for that?
Thank you very much.
Also i want to admit that i hate vain, conceited, arrogant people. I can't stand them. (yes saying this made me some relaxed)
Edited by jsonx, 04 April 2012 - 05:26 PM.