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Posted by LovelyThoughts , 14 August 2012 -

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I haven't posted in a few weeks. While I thought I was feeling better...now I believe I was in a hypomanic state...and that thought was even in the back of my mind this whole time but I ignored it, along with checking in here. Didn't want to face reality I just wanted to feel good.

...is it even possible to be two weeks hypo two weeks depressed?...

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Busy Outside...

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 06 August 2012 -

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Well I have kind of been feeling like my old self this past week! Been doing a lot of changes in the front yard and it is starting to finally feel like mine-putting my stamp on it. I was right about part of the depression that wouldn't leave and my hating living in this house. I wasn't doing anything to make it mine like I had done at other...

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Exercise And Last Periods-Tmi?

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 02 August 2012 -

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WOOO HOOO!!! This morning I started what I hope will be my last period EVER!!

Ablation is scheduled for the 22nd. I am a bit nervous about it though...things like, what if they dont put me totally under, what if this screws up my hormones and I am more miserable than before, what if it causes me to have more cramps after...well I guess...

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Back To Where I Belong

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 30 July 2012 -

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and I am relieved.

Having the ablation in a little over 3 weeks and I am actually quite excited about it. This very well be the last cycle I will ever have (well I wont get out of the ovulation/PMS stuff but at least I wont have to deal with the PITA part)

Definitely has PMS last week and I stopped taking Risperdal at some point due to dizziness (cant...

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Tattoo's And Hypomania

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 24 July 2012 -

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Not exactly sure what is going on up there in my brain these last 4-5 days.

Starting thursday afternoon (3rd day or so on my 2 week on prozac 2 weeks off) I began feeling quite hypo-manic.

Found a birth mom ribbon and decided I wanted it as a tattoo on my inside left wrist. Forgot I told my cousin I would go with her to ikea when she got off work and as...

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Girlie Part Appt Follow Up

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 19 July 2012 -

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Its is nothing!! Yayyyyy!!! Well it is something but nothing we need to do anything about. They are just cysts that come and go and will usually resolve themselves without any intervention.

He did however mention ablation again and I asked him about anesthesia during the procedure and he said they knock you out., I said SIGN ME UP!...

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Girlie Appt

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 18 July 2012 -

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Have my appt today to see what is going on down there. I truly don't think it is anything but some sort of fibroids or somethings but my fear is that he will recommend a hysterectomy. I soooooooo don't want to go there. My only fear is ***TMI WARNING**** loss of orgasm after. All the other stuff (unless they want my ovaries as well) I would greatly...

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I Am So Effin Sick Of Being A Birth Mom

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 15 July 2012 -

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I think I need to block my surrendered daughter and her husband from my fb feed. For the last almost year whenever I see their posts and photos it makes me feel like crap. It is becoming too triggering especially in the last few weeks.

I totally feel like I failed at being her Mom because I am not her...

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Another Day...

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 13 July 2012 -

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Had dinner at my cousins last night and about 3 glasses of wine. I wasnt "drunk" because it was over a 4-5 hour time period, but I was tipsy. I feel like an idiot. I have always been able to do/correct things that are bad for me but I just can't seem to get a grip. I feel weak and stupid for not doing the obvious and just freaking take care of...

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Scary Girls Parts Stuff...

Posted by LovelyThoughts , 11 July 2012 -

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~TMI WARNING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As if my week hasn't been trying enough. I have some sort of growth or cyst on my cervix and my cervix is ...I cant remember the word but she said its become vascular like and she couldnt tell if the bleeding I am having is coming from the cyst or my cervix. My Mom has has cervical, ovarian and...

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